This was the most difficult video series I've ever produced, because it is intensely personal.

Two friends of mine recently committed suicide by violent means. This is the story from my point-of-view.

After the deaths of "Matt" and "Nate," I wondered if suicide rates were up. I asked around. No answer. Then, the news in September 2007, reported the US nationwide suicide rates for young people are the highest they've been in fifteen years. Here's the 2007 CDC Report on Suicide in Young People from The CDC.

It is clear that suicide is a topic that should not be ignored, even though it is one of the most uncomfortable subjects to discuss with our children, close relations and friends.

In this video, I simply tell my story exactly how it happened and how the suicides of two people affected all of us. I describe unsettling details of the suicide scenes in order to solidify the hard and dirty reality of suicide. I wanted to drive home the point that committing suidide is not glamorous. It is not some dramatic "exit stage-left" out of this world, but it is, in reality, a horrific, bloody and messy exit that affects people long after one is dead. So, just be aware that some descriptive aspects of this video may be inappropriate for young children.

Usually people prone to suicide display outward signs of isolation, loneliness and depression. The weird thing about "Matt" and "Nate" is that neither of them displayed these outward signs. These were outwardly joy-filled, normal, happy people. They literally exuded joy! Everyone who know both of these men were shocked. To this day, I still have problems believing this to be reality. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and still believe them to be alive, that suicide is impossible, given their character. Then, when I remember the reality, I weep once again, for them and for their families. We are all sick and heartbroken at the lost of these fine Christian men, both very good people. I write this introduction with fresh tears.

This video is dedicated to my friends "Matt" and "Nate." (This is not their real names). You are missed!

In Memorium

Eternal Rest Grant Unto Them, O Lord, and Let Perpetual Light Shine Upon Them. Amen.

"Matt"

November 30, 1961 - July 7, 2007

** A wonderful husband and father, and comedian extraordinaire. Your humor, smiles and practical jokes will be cherished forever, my friend.**

"Nate"

November 3, 1970 - April 13, 2007

** The coolest realtor anyone could ask for, who introduced me to Burrito in a Cup. Your thousand megawatt smile will always be remembered. I hope we meet again in Paradise, my good friend.**

To those who've lost a friend or loved to suicide : There is always hope! All we can do, now, is pray for their salvation, despite the veil of depair surrounding their sudden passing. Only God can judge them. Only God knows the reason for their passing. He is a God of Mercy, and that is something we should always remember and cling to in the sorrows surrounding a suicide.

Sweet Mother Mary, please pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our deaths. Amen.

God Bless.

Mary Ann Button, Web Mistress.

Victims of Suicide

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